I have not written an article for a while now. Poetry got a
bit greedy and started dominating me. But being here at home under this pure
African skyline, under these mountains and landscapes that I grew up under I
felt that I should take some time off to start writing articles again, so as to
do something productive over my jolly merry holidays. Who knows; these stories
may lead to a novel one day. Well, that will be a very disorganized one though
I must say, because my thoughts, more often than not tend to be very scattered.
Since
my purpose is to say a lot of things LOUDLY and my focus is always on
sexuality, and relationships I thought I should write this article on one of
the things that always bug me. For the past few months or so, my Facebook newsfeed
has been flooded with stories of people immediately realizing that “every time
you sleep with a person, they leave a part of them with you. Your soul
conceives that someone’s soul and the more people you sleep with the more
deadly souls you have inside of you. These pollute your own soul too, you
change from the person you purely were and act in a manner that is not
voluntarily controlled by you but by the souls that reside inside of you
because of your sexual discrepancies. This is why sexual contact, by religion
and by social and cultural morality should be reserved for marriage only.”
Well,
I will not lie, this got me thinking a lot, especially about the people, therefore
souls that I have acquired and allowed habitat in my own soul. Well, there is
more than one, more than two, more than… (Ok, I have lost count). What I am
trying to say is that if I honestly started counting, this article will never
get to be finished. The more I assessed myself was the more I realized the
screwed up person I actually am because of all the things that I got up to. I
realized the people who also got screwed up just because they allowed me and my
thousand souls inside them too. For one, I have never been in a relationship
that lasted for more than a year, well until I met my current partner. We have
been with each other for a year, having sex with each other for a year and
4months now to be exact. But we have known each other for about 3years now. I
guess she is the additional soul that I have allowed in. she would do things
that I do, and I would also find myself doing things that she does and she
would be like “Well, I guess, that is sexually transmitted.”. and now that I
really do think about it, I have known her for long, have been having sex with
her the longest therefore every time we allow each other to each other’s most
fragile places, we also allow each other’s souls and habits to intertwine.
Have
you ever wondered why people would say: “wow, you guys really look alike, you
could be siblings” to people who have dated for a long time? Hhhhmmm, ok I know
that’s creepy, and I’m not there. But truth is; that person’s soul finds a
comfort zone inside of you the more you allow it to. You start being a mirror
image of that person to the world that sees your physical self. That one soul
does not just reside inside of you but on your physical appearance too. But I
have found this to be true of people who have very strong sexual and emotional
bonds. These people do not just have sex that takes them to heaven and back but
they also love each other to heaven and back. When they have sex, they make
love on another cloud 9 deep level. They do not even attempt on any given day
to block each other out (I know one can be blocked out because this I have
attempted with success a couple of times. There were those people I could not
take the risk of letting them in). One willingly pours themselves to the other
and let’s go of everything. They stand naked in body and soul and the other one
willingly opens up, (not just legs) but heart, soul, and mind, and they get
lost into each other through this sacred act.
Does
this mean when you do find this type of soul, you stand a chance of getting
your soul purified? I think so. The more you let one constant person in and
allow them to dwell in you, you force all the other souls out, slowly and
silently, their footprints and the patterns that they left within you disappear
and you get renewed. It’s like this; I’m not a person who reads the bible much
but there are verses somewhere between the scriptures that state something like
this, “they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount
up with wings like eagles.” And another
one says something like this: “the Lord redeems your life from the pit and
crowns you with love and compassion; he satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.” I am not trying to compare one
person who is also in the flesh with God but the bible does say itself that God
is Love, therefore when you find that person who truly loves you, when you find
love, you find God himself in his pure-rest form. Therefore it makes sense that
you get renewed, you get new wings, a new fresher soul, even stronger than the
one you had before. Your unhealthy sexual life gets you in something like a
pit, like a hell of some sort in your waking life, but you get redeemed and
crowned by love and compassion. All other soul ties get broken loose.
I
guess we really do have to understand that every time you sleep with someone,
you become one flesh with that person. You enter into some form of marriage.
Like in the old biblical times, there was no marriage like we have now, people
never use to go to church to be married by a pastor and everyone would come and
celebrate this matrimonial act. No. what used to happen is that marriage was
measured by sex. The person you have sex with is the person that is regarded as
your spouse. So imagine the people you have engaged in sexual acts with. I
guess we have to strive to find our soul mates in this lifetime. That one
person who will help us purify ourselves and be new again and enter into new
forms of sexual, emotional and soul ties. When you do find that person, hold on
to them because letting go will cause more hurt and you will feel like your
soul has been ripped out and hence a lot of people tend to get suicidal when
they break up with their partners of many years and people who do not
understand would be like: “but you have a family, why would you kill yourself
for a man or a woman.” It goes back to soul ties. This is deeper than what we
can ever attempt to comprehend.
#Sigh
#IsaidItLoud